I’ve spent the past two days thinking a lot about the changes that I need to make regarding my health (aka carb addiction).
And to be honest, I’ve had to be very careful with my thinking because I tend to come up with plans that I’ve heard worked for other people, only to fail miserably at them myself.
I find myself going to the extreme of saying that I’ll never eat sugar again (I mean, who am i kidding, right??), and then all I can think about is sugar. I dwell on it, fantasize about it, and even try to come up with a way to sneak it into my house. I’ve then become a “closet-eater”, where i hide and consume all sorts of junk food without my family seeing me.
Once I’ve consumed the junk the guilt sets in.
i then feel like a failure, and I’m filled with shame over my lack of self-control.
all of those feelings unfortunately lead me to emotional eating, where i then consume more of the foods that I’m trying to avoid.
do you see what a vicious cycle this becomes??
anyway, back to my plan.
A sweet friend of mine shared with me a recipe for a delicious protein shake; at first i was skeptical because quite frankly, most shakes I’ve tried taste like absolute crap. Just sayin.
anyway, i bought the protein powder and made the shake last week, and i was pleasantly surprised. I actually liked it! So, part of my new plan is to have a protein shake each morning for breakfast; or maybe I’ll switch it up and have eggs for breakfast and a shake for lunch. Either way, i plan to have a shake each day.
in case you’re wondering why I’m choosing to have the shakes rather than cooking myself a healthy breakfast, it’s mainly because having the shakes makes deciding what to have for breakfast easy for me. It also helps me avoid any temptations i may be having to eat a crappy, junk-filled breakfast that will leave me feeling like crap.
I’ve also decided that I’m going to track my calories as well as my carbs. I really like the LoseIt app for tracking calories, and I’ve found that the Carb Manager app is great for counting carbs. I didn’t really want to deal with two apps when i track my food, but neither app tracks both carbs and calories unless i pay for the premium version, which i dont want to do.
I’m planning to stay under 100 carbs each day, which seems reasonable enough to me. For a while, i tried staying under 50, but that got tricky.
I’m also planning to get on the treadmill tomorrow. I haven’t worked out for a few weeks now, and it shows. It’s amazing how working out motivates me to want to eat better; I guess i feel like since i worked hard to burn calories, i dont want to sabotage my efforts! On the flip side, when I’m not working out, i tend to lose my desire to eat healthy. On a side note, walking a couple of miles each morning does wonders for my mood, as well as my emotions.
while my goal is to lose weight, i also want to focus on my relationship with food and how i view it. Quite frankly, i dont feel that i have a healthy relationship with food, and I really want to change that. I feel like i live to eat rather than eating to live. Baby steps, right?